pieces of my mind
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Zombie
I seriously need to live .
I don't feel like i have a life right now .
Holidays can be great fun but it can also be DAMN BORING .
I've been living the same ol routines for the past weeks ;
Eat
Sleep
Pray
Take a bath
Movie-marathon-on-the-computer
Facebook
Texting
Keyboard playing
And yada yada same ol things over again the following day
It's a good thing that the Comic Fiesta's week
At least there's something to get me going
And before i know it , i had begun to realise that im going to turn SEVENTEEN
In a couple of weeks (well , actually it's in october , but huuhh , you get the picture)
......
Damn...
WTF ? SENIOR YEAR?????
....
-__________________-
i can't belive that im soo ...old already
Time does flies ,isn't it .
Honestly , i kinda hoped for this moment to come .
I may not look like it , but im the kind of person to frequently think of those kind of stuffs
I mean ;college , career life and marriage
I...i always wish that i would have a great and a happy family then
Daydreams , you know how they can be .
Hahahh , i always daydream of my future husband (though it may sounds..err..gross?)
I always do
Oh..i just noticed of how keen i am in liking someone
And how it is probably the effects of ..how my family is right now .
I've been liking this guy for a while now
He doesn't know for sure(i think)
Well, to tell the truth , i had never actually talk to him
It's one of those ,'liking from a distance' thingy
My friends often ask me , WHY in the world would i go for that guy
Ok ok , he's not that good looking in general(not the type to make girls go gaga or sumthin)
But he is good in sports , basketball , golf , soccer and stuff .
He is loud and well-liked by his friends , a people person (unlike me)
And he is funny (or should i say , in a retarded weird way)
(maybe im attracted to weird kind of guys.........)
Anywayy , i also don't know why i liked him
There's something about him that makes me lured into him
Because well , he's....too normal
Maybe with all these nonsense happening in my life , i actually yearn for something normal
Im just jealous of how normal his life is
And ....how i wanted to be a part of it.
But i know that that's ridiculous , since he doesn't even know me .
We're..world apart
We're too different from each other
There's no way that im ever going to be in his life
Even as a friend
And i know that im going to get hurt
If i grew closer to him
I know
Iknow
But why am i so stupid to be keeping these feelings that i know that won't be returned anyway?
I don't know
I just have to wait till it all disappear then.